Broke my vow not to discuss the test, then played a great series of raquetball games with Adam. I almost beat him, but he took 2 of 3... I rushed home and got dressed "professionally" for my first patient interview of med school. We had to interview standardized patients (actors-but they seem like the real thing) about pain. This was a "sink or swim" type of thing, we had no real instructions or guidance, we just went in. In the training center we buddied up and watched live audio/video feeds of our partners interviewing. I did fine, but i had an easy case, an older lady with arthritis pain. Other pwople had dudes with metastatic prostate cancer and a teen with menstrual cramps. How does a guy empathize with that?
Came home and changed, and headed for Aaron's in Newport. Brought food and BBQed steak, chicken, corn, and spuds. Drank a good amount of beer, and most of the crowd showed up (it's sort of the tall atletic surfer white crowd) then some more classmates showed and we played a few too many drinking games. The rest of the class was at Yard House so we met them there just in time for last call, stayed 20 minutes, and by that time i was obliterated. Got a ride back to a classmate's place in PV, and dropped my phone in the toilet. Was extrmemly pissed. Dried it out and let it sit all night, fortunately I only lost the front display... After 10 minutes there I ambled home by myself and stole a road cone from the arc parking lot to pput in front of Mark's bedroom door. He was awake and equally wasted. we hung out ehn passed out.
I woke up at 7:00 for class feeling like a freight train hit me. Did not ride my bike to class, fell asleep for 20 minutes during the literally worthless 2 hours of lecture given by our Biochem professsor. He was doing an intro to his section, and told stories the whole time. Then we had our funny German lipd man teacher, and when everyone finished flipping frantically through his notes and getting hand cramps from writing the whole time, someone elected me to go ask him to post his powerpoints online. I had to give the guy my password to the student website.
It's weird, I am one of 5 course reps for the class (chosen at random) who have to meet with the faculty to tell them what we think of how the course is going. I have opnions, most of which I'd rather not express directly to the faculty over lunch.
Jetted home right after class, ate, cleaned my room, removed the ant colony from the kitchen trashcan, the took a half hour nap. Went to the arc and spent my last ounces of energy lifting a few weights and getting my ass kicked at badminton by Kris. I seriously go to school with the best athletes I've ever met. Came home and watched Shawshank Redemption.
I am a little depressed lately. I feel lonely, like a piece of me I've depended on for so long is missing. School is not even that stressful yet, it's all the other stuff, like the fact that I'd like to get involved in clubs, etc. but I don't know if I'll have time, and the fact that I haven't talked to any of my friends lately and I'm withdrawing big time. I fee like I don't have the will to socialize unless it's getting faded with my classmates (which is not all that rewarding anymore, we already know each other). On one hand I'm really glad I don't have to juggle a relationship right now, but on the other hand I miss having someone close, someone I can tell anything. I miss her, and I think about running into her every day. Oh yeah, and i haven't told my brother we broke up. I am scared of how the girls will react, they really liked Yvonne and got pretty close to her. I feel like I let them all down or something. Now I have the added guilt of not saying anything. Sometimes I don't like to open up to my brother, I feel like he's too intense a lot of the time. Also we're close, but not as close as if we'd grown up together. It's weird.
I always get like this when I'm hung over...
